Knowing a lot about astrology and Human Design does not make me immune to any of it.
It is a trap I catch my clients in, and myself just as often: because I know what is coming astrologically, I have the situation under control.
And I am sorry to bring you this news — you who may be just as fond of control as I am — but nothing could be further from the truth.
Chiron in Aries, in a pronounced Aries year
For a while now I have been watching a particular configuration in my chart with a wary eye. One that has to do with pain and wounding from the past. With my family of origin, with home and hearth, with my deepest psychological self. In that area of life my Chiron sits in Aries. And in this pronounced Aries year, with both Saturn and Neptune in that sign, my own wound is being thoroughly touched.
Where I thought I had closed the book long ago, it turned out there were a few chapters I had not entirely read. And I got them full in the face.
My head had filed it away years ago. My body said otherwise.
I knew the whole range of what an activation like this can do. And still I was taken aback by what it did to my body and my life.
Life is here to be lived all the way through
So it became painfully clear to me again how much life is here to be lived, and lived all the way through. Not to steer, manage or polish away every obstacle in advance so that we never have to go through the experience.
All of us, from time to time, get an activation of an important point in our chart. And my message is this: you never have to be afraid of it. You also do not have to manage it away.
And of course I resisted. I would rather not have. But when planets like Chiron and Pluto are touched, both of which symbolise a wound, ducking is not an option.
Just as well. Because there is always the release and the space that comes afterwards. After we have dared to look, dared to feel, and dared to be honest.
So what does an instrument like astrology contribute?
My clients all know better. And still, almost everyone secretly hopes that I will predict their future. I understand that longing, because I have it myself.
What astrology gives is better than that. It tells me that it is time, and that I am ready. It shows me what it looks like when I leave it alone, and what it looks like when I walk through it bravely.
I need nothing more than that.